My name is Gabriella and i was born in Budapest Hungary 52 years ago, Under communism, where people usually go to church three times in there life time.

First time when you born you will be baptized, then when you get married, and the final visit is when you are in the coffin.

Not knowing there is anything more to life, then to run and make the money, get married, have children.

Lived like all other walking in the world, and when i heard of GOD i use to say, "you crazy that is for stupid people, who can not do nothing for themselves."

Then again you run into people who are so called Christian, but you belive you are more Christian without going to Church then they are.

Anyway, I was Mrs FIX it, i did not need God, i am capable of doing things for my self. So i thought.

Got married when i was just 16 years old to my first love my teenager love whom i knew since i was 14 years old, he was 9 years older than me.

By the time i was 18 years old i had a 6 months old baby. I escaped form my country at the age of 20 with my son being two and a half years old and my husband.

Why?.....because my husband said so,..... there was no such a thing that you disobeyed your husband, or you had a mind of your own, if he said jump you jumped. Or you would be walking with a black eye for weeks. Which happened to me more then once.

I got beaten, raped used and abused by him for years. Very early in my marriage by the age of 18 i just simply did not wanted to live and took pills to end my life. That was the second time my life nearly ended.

The first time when my mother was pregnant with me and went to have an abortion. But by the grace of GOD my father came home from work, only to find out where my mother has gone (from the next door neighbor.)

He jumped on his motor bike and flew there, where my mother was already on the table and if he would of been just minutes late i would not be writing this testimony now.

Now tell me God is not on time! He is always on time we are just to inpatient, and we want everything in our time. The third time my life nearly ended when i was visiting in Greece a girlfriend of mine and was supposed to go back to Hungary and missed the train, which would of take me strait to hell. I remember i was so upset i was fuming because i missed the train. Only to learn that my train has fall down the valley, and all the passengers where killed, and i was supposed to be on it with my son.

You have to remember i did not know at this time God existed, because i never read the Bible and i did not belive anything. I was thought in the school we came from the monkeys (Darwin's theory)

One day i asked my father if we did came from the monkey's or did not? Never forget his face he simply said maybe you did came from a monkeys but i did not, then he realized what he said, and started to laugh so hard his tears was falling down his face.

After my divorce from my fist husband i found my self all alone in a strange country, no family no relatives, barely spoke the language. It was just me and my 7 years old son who i was raising as a single Mother.

Well of course my ex husband was not going to make it easy for me, and was not paying no support.

He said for me to go back to him or to die. I said who needs you and did not returned, which i did 3 times earlier. And i was not about to do again.

Soon after this i meet a Hungarian man 22 years older then me figuring that he has more brain then I . Since I was only 25 years old. Got married to him and believed it will be forever, because what would a man want who has a wife 22 years younger then him?

Well he wanted alcohol more then his young wife. I soon found out once the honey moon was over i knew i made a big mistake, but there was no return i was carrying his child soon to be a mother again.

My Mother came to visit me and she told me she become a Jehovah witness, and i should read the BIBLE. I did not see my Mother being a very Godly woman, so i already had my opinion about people who where reading the BIBLE.

I was 27 years old when i read the bible the first time and as i can remember reading it made no sense to me what so ever . To me it was like a fairy tail: God, angels, and the devil, they all sounded like snow-white and the seven dwarfs to me.

After i could not put up no more with my husbands drinking, i packed my things and held my sons hand at age 2 and a half and moved out to start my new life again.

So i was like Frank Sinatra singing I DID IT MY WAY, only he was collecting money and i was collecting children :)

Yes you guest it, i got married again to a man who was a chief engineer on a container line and was at sea most of the time. Later find out he only loved me, to get to Canada and be able to stay in Canada and maybe later to have a chance to bring his ex family.

So i moved on again always leaving everything behind starting all over again. But this time i figured i would go back home, and i did. Only to find my father and Mother divorced after 35 years of marriage. Life has changed and really i have no place no home nowhere. I stayed there for 18 months, but could not get use to it. My mother was heart broken because of my Father marrying a woman only 4 years older then me. My sister was just divorcing her husband, because her child was born from her boyfriend.

I could not stand my Father new wife, and watch all this so i returned back to Canada. I had one thousand dollars for emergency i left behind and a 7 years old boy, to start a new life with.

I started to work as a hair stylist, find an apartment, and really just lived for my son to raise him properly. Did not date and really did not wan to get involved again, until that someone special will come along. But he was taking his sweet time.

A man, just a friend, with whom my son fell in love with, was telling me how much he cares for me and what a wonderful life we could have together. He had no body, i had nobody, he loved me and my son, and he would make our life wonderful.

I knew he is not for me and i knew it will never work but i was hoping it could, and i just fell into this relationship.

He said he loved me and wanted to marry me, but i was more careful now i did not want to marry anymore. I figured what for, i had married 3 times and 3 times got divorced. Now i will try without that piece of paper.

My oldest son was gone moved out of the nest he was 24, my younger son being 14 years old, was home going through teenager years. Then it happened, to my biggest surprise i got pregnant again at the age of 41.

I was just devastated, I did not want this baby, I did not want to marry, i just wanted to die.

Of course i had him. I could not do anything about it.

I knew a couple, old friend of mine and they told me if i really did not want the baby, they would adopt him after he was born. This gave me a bit of relief because for sure i was not going to raise an other child on my own. I had my third son, and as soon as he entered this world i knew i could never give him up no matter what, i will raise him if i have to, on my own.

God was in the midst of all this but i did not know..He had to be born like i did, there is a purpose before the foundation of this earth. One day we will know all......

My little Jonathan was born and I just lived the so called normal life. His Father was a simple person with simple rules his way or no way and see no harm on cheating, and saw no harm in not coming home on time, and saw no harm not paying the bills. He simply did not care.

At the time Jonathan was 7 month old I lost my house because i was on maternity leave and he did not pay the mortgage. My money was not enough to feed 3 people and a baby.

Then God said," are you going to listen and stop running? or do you still want to do it your way? "Oh my!" What a change in my life he brought. I will never forget the day I was just minding my own business when two man came to my door.

They told me they are reborn Christians and they want to pray for me, something i saw and felt, especially with one of them. I invited them in and 15 minutes later in my kitchen i was saved and hugged and kissed by my Father and welcomed into HIS Family. I was hungry a new life began to sink in, a life i newer knew before. I started to read the Bible and it came alive in front of my eyes, and what made no sense was making so much sense now.

I could not put it down i just wanted to read and read and soak it up like a sponge.

He told me to clean house and i did, I finished with my cheating man, and sent him on his way, and learned Life without my father, my precious Jesus Christ, was nothing at all.

I had waisted most of my life being hard headed and not listening. Thinking if i can learn to be just a little more patient and wait on him, and if i just learn to walk blind, and be obedient then it will be so much easier to die to the flesh.

I pray and ask him daily to make me what he wants me to be. He knows I'm all alone in this Country, He knows all about me so i trust him and i rest in him.

I know he takes care of me and when i cry he bottles my tears, he holds me in his arms and HE tells me daily. I'm special a wonderful creation of my Lord Jesus Christ, and he is with me inside of me, and i thank him that he was always in the midst of everything and saved my life more then one occasion.

I know he has a special blessing for me on the way, and i know he will be glorified. I'm not proud of my life i made many mistakes, but now i don't say anymore God is only for the stupid people. I learned that God is a must, if you walk without him you will surly fall. I learned it the hard way,

I'm on my own 5 years now raising my son alone, and he takes care of us. My Mother who is a Jehovah witness for 40 years, told me she will disown me if i don't become the same. She is 80 years old now and she prayed the sinners prayer and i believe she is saved. God is so merciful that HE used the child she did not want, for HIS glory. He used this child and HE saved them both.I pray that these words will bless you and please do not be a MR FIX it or a MRS OR MISS FIX it. We can't do nothing without him.

Without HIM all is a lie. I don't know where my life will take me, my Jonathan is now 10 years old, but i believe HE has something special for me just around the corner. I don't feel alone anymore. I am home where ever i go he is holding my hand, and telling me look at me, talk to ME. I know you are carried away by hundreds of things in life, but make it your first concern to be with ME. I gave you all you have. You think I'M not able to double my gifts? Or I love you less?

Discouragement never elevates anyone. Keep going Don't stop. I love you, I died for you, Honor ME by calling ME to help you........ Yes FATHER.....I understand, ........now I KNOW. Thank you Father PRAISE YOU MY ABBA, my loving Father PRAISE YOU JESUS CHRIST. Please help me to LOVE YOU FOREVER........